As following my past post about "true friends" I stumbled upon one of my favorite songs in my itunes library. I have so many songs that I usually forget about them after a while so when I rediscover them it's like Christmas. :-)
The song that just popped up is "Lean On Me" by Al Green. Now intertwining the song into the current situation that I'm in (and that I feel like I'm in more than I care to admit)...
"It won't be long til I'm gonna need somebody to lean on"..."we all need somebody to lean on"..."if there's a load that you have to bear, that you can't carry I'm right up the road, I'll share your load if you just call me."
You're right Mr. Green, we all need someone to lean on. No matter how strong we act or how hard we try to hide what's really going on on the inside, we all need someone to talk to. We all need our special friend who will listen without judging and who will listen wholeheartedly. I feel that I listen wholeheartedly and don't judge when someone confides in me, what's said between us will stay between us and no other ears will hear.
Lately I feel as if I've needed someone to lean on, someone who will share my load but I'm having trouble finding that where I am right now. I don't open up often or to many people for that matter, I feel like a burden when I need to get something off my chest so most of the time I find it best to just keep it in and figure things out on my own...but that can sometimes create other problems (keeping things in I mean).
I'm just in slump right now I guess, something I'll pull myself out of soon enough. It's just kinda cruddy right now but I know I'll be fine. Tomorrow is another day.
Monday, February 8, 2010
Saturday, February 6, 2010
So today I had to go out for a bit and run a few errands done. After they were done I decided to stop and get something to eat, I was totally in the mood for something greasy and bad so I went to...*gasp*...Burger King. I know, everyone says Burger King is bad but hey, sometimes I don't feel like being healthy. There are certain times when females crave salty fries and greasy sandwiches...they are NOT to be denied these things. ;-)
Anyway, I was going through the drive-thru and as I was waiting for my food all I could hear was non-stop barking. I was looking around trying to figure out where all the noise was coming from and then I saw it....right next the the back door of the restaurant, tied to the iron rod fence without enough slack to lay down or walk around was a dog. The dog was standing on its hind legs peeking into the window and barking. It just made me feel completely awful seeing that. It was pretty widny and cold out today too, so that made me feel even crappier. I couldn't stop thinking that the dog is probably cold just hanging around on the cement sidewalk waiting for its owner to finish eating so they can go back home where it's warm.
It really bothered me seeing this today. Seriously, who in the world would treat their pet like that? Leaving it outside in the cold on a short leash and allowing it to constantly bark, the poor dog just looked so uncomfortable. Pets are not just animals, they're part of the family. A creature that you love as much as any other person (if not more) in your family. I know that if I had a dog, or any pet for that matter, I would rather skip eating than leave it out in the cold by itself on a short leash. If I was hungry enough I would get my food to go and sit outside and eat it with my dog. That may seem a bit extreme to some people, but that's just how I role...
Anyway, I was going through the drive-thru and as I was waiting for my food all I could hear was non-stop barking. I was looking around trying to figure out where all the noise was coming from and then I saw it....right next the the back door of the restaurant, tied to the iron rod fence without enough slack to lay down or walk around was a dog. The dog was standing on its hind legs peeking into the window and barking. It just made me feel completely awful seeing that. It was pretty widny and cold out today too, so that made me feel even crappier. I couldn't stop thinking that the dog is probably cold just hanging around on the cement sidewalk waiting for its owner to finish eating so they can go back home where it's warm.
It really bothered me seeing this today. Seriously, who in the world would treat their pet like that? Leaving it outside in the cold on a short leash and allowing it to constantly bark, the poor dog just looked so uncomfortable. Pets are not just animals, they're part of the family. A creature that you love as much as any other person (if not more) in your family. I know that if I had a dog, or any pet for that matter, I would rather skip eating than leave it out in the cold by itself on a short leash. If I was hungry enough I would get my food to go and sit outside and eat it with my dog. That may seem a bit extreme to some people, but that's just how I role...
Friday, February 5, 2010
Catching Up
It's been almost a month since I've written anything, I guess I fell out of the loop with the blogging world once again. Not much has happened since my last post, nothing overly exciting, I mean. Just a quick recap...
Second semester started, I have just as many classes as I had last semester but this semester they're more spaced out throughout the week, I kinda like it better that way. Things are going, nothing good, nothing bad...just going. One of my roommates was kicked out and moved back home, she wasn't very stable to begin with. I began losing my patience with her very early on in the beginning of the year, how can you help someone when they ask for it if they aren't willing to motivate themselves to better things? She said she wanted to do better but when the time came for her to step up her game she had the "I don't care" attitude. I just hope being kicked out of college opened her eyes and she'll get her act together and start over.
Went to a concert a few weeks ago and saw The Elders which was a lot of fun. You should definitely listen to them if you have a chance and if you're able to make it to one of their shows then I recommend chatting with them, they're really nice!
Looking forward to going to Shamrock Fest in March. It will be a crazy day filled with everything Irish. Meeting up with some friends once I get down there and then our ears will be filled with fun Irish music, 10 different stages and well over 40 bands that will be playing there!!
Um....I think that's about all there is when it comes to catching up, nothing much happening here...seriously, nothing at all.
I am an idiot. Why on earth did I befriend people that don't stay on campus for the weekends?! Out of all my friends I'm the only one that doesn't live in the general area, they all live within a 30 minute drive from my college. So while they're home with their boyfriends, spending time with their family and sleeping in their own beds I'm here...happy that there's some quiet time to be had, but I'm the only one here. There are 7 girls that live on the 3rd floor and on the weekends there's only 1...moi.
And this also gets me wondering about friends. I'm not sure that I can say I have a friend on campus that's a REALLY close friend. I mean, I have friends of course and when they have issues they need to work out they pretty much always find me and want to get it off their chest (which is fine, I'm happy that they feel most comfortable talking to me) but when the roles are reversed, when I need someone to talk to, it seems as if I become invisible and everyone has "too much work to do" or is "busy." Now why is it that even if it's 10 o'clock at night and I've got 200 pages to read in a book and a write up to do that's due the next day, I put it down so they can vent and feel better but when I need to talk or just need someone to sit there with me while I take all the thoughts in my head and say them out loud so I can get a better understanding of them ( and so they can comment as well) they're no where to be found? They sometimes, if they even notice, ask me what's wrong when I'm upset but when I start explaining things to them they seem to lose all interest, their cellphone will go off and they'll run to their room to get it or they'll completely cut me off and vent to me about something that happened to them that day.
I honestly don't vent often and I know this for a fact, I never get a chance to. I think that's partially the reason as to why I don't sleep at night, once everyone goes to bed it's nice and quiet which gives me time to think about things on my own and try to work situations out. I feel like all of my friends at college run to me when they have problems or just things they want to talk about but if I have something I want to talk about then it's all up to me to talk to myself about them (in my head of course :-) ).
I guess what I'm trying to say is that I have friends at college but at the same time I don't. I love them though, we have really fun times, but they aren't true friends.
Makes me wonder what it means to really be a 'true' friend and if there even is such a thing...
On a side note it's pretty warm outside today!!! There's still snow on the ground but not too much. I'm definitely ready for Spring, I miss the warm sun...."here comes the sun little darlin'..."
Happy Friday :)
Second semester started, I have just as many classes as I had last semester but this semester they're more spaced out throughout the week, I kinda like it better that way. Things are going, nothing good, nothing bad...just going. One of my roommates was kicked out and moved back home, she wasn't very stable to begin with. I began losing my patience with her very early on in the beginning of the year, how can you help someone when they ask for it if they aren't willing to motivate themselves to better things? She said she wanted to do better but when the time came for her to step up her game she had the "I don't care" attitude. I just hope being kicked out of college opened her eyes and she'll get her act together and start over.
Went to a concert a few weeks ago and saw The Elders which was a lot of fun. You should definitely listen to them if you have a chance and if you're able to make it to one of their shows then I recommend chatting with them, they're really nice!
Looking forward to going to Shamrock Fest in March. It will be a crazy day filled with everything Irish. Meeting up with some friends once I get down there and then our ears will be filled with fun Irish music, 10 different stages and well over 40 bands that will be playing there!!
Um....I think that's about all there is when it comes to catching up, nothing much happening here...seriously, nothing at all.
I am an idiot. Why on earth did I befriend people that don't stay on campus for the weekends?! Out of all my friends I'm the only one that doesn't live in the general area, they all live within a 30 minute drive from my college. So while they're home with their boyfriends, spending time with their family and sleeping in their own beds I'm here...happy that there's some quiet time to be had, but I'm the only one here. There are 7 girls that live on the 3rd floor and on the weekends there's only 1...moi.
And this also gets me wondering about friends. I'm not sure that I can say I have a friend on campus that's a REALLY close friend. I mean, I have friends of course and when they have issues they need to work out they pretty much always find me and want to get it off their chest (which is fine, I'm happy that they feel most comfortable talking to me) but when the roles are reversed, when I need someone to talk to, it seems as if I become invisible and everyone has "too much work to do" or is "busy." Now why is it that even if it's 10 o'clock at night and I've got 200 pages to read in a book and a write up to do that's due the next day, I put it down so they can vent and feel better but when I need to talk or just need someone to sit there with me while I take all the thoughts in my head and say them out loud so I can get a better understanding of them ( and so they can comment as well) they're no where to be found? They sometimes, if they even notice, ask me what's wrong when I'm upset but when I start explaining things to them they seem to lose all interest, their cellphone will go off and they'll run to their room to get it or they'll completely cut me off and vent to me about something that happened to them that day.
I honestly don't vent often and I know this for a fact, I never get a chance to. I think that's partially the reason as to why I don't sleep at night, once everyone goes to bed it's nice and quiet which gives me time to think about things on my own and try to work situations out. I feel like all of my friends at college run to me when they have problems or just things they want to talk about but if I have something I want to talk about then it's all up to me to talk to myself about them (in my head of course :-) ).
I guess what I'm trying to say is that I have friends at college but at the same time I don't. I love them though, we have really fun times, but they aren't true friends.
Makes me wonder what it means to really be a 'true' friend and if there even is such a thing...
On a side note it's pretty warm outside today!!! There's still snow on the ground but not too much. I'm definitely ready for Spring, I miss the warm sun...."here comes the sun little darlin'..."
Happy Friday :)
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